Archive for October, 2006
I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it’s going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you’ve never met anyone
who is as negative as I am sometimes
I am the wisest woman you’ve ever met.
I am the kindest soul with whom you’ve connected.
I have the bravest heart that you’ve ever seen
And you’ve never met anyone
Who’s as positive as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I’m ashamed
There’s not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
–alanis
October 26th, 2006
I’ve met some folks who say that I’m a dreamer,
And I’ve no doubt there’s truth in what they say,
Sure a body’s bound to be a dreamer,
When all the things he loves are far away.
October 25th, 2006
i love when a prof looks at me and says, “padraigin you’re very logical”. and i can tell that they’re being as much apologetic as they are being complimentary.
October 24th, 2006
As a young, middle-class, white Canadian I have had the joy of being told I could be or become anything I wanted: to follow my dreams, to follow my heart–to do what felt right. I do not belive that this is the ‘right’ way to raise/indoctrinate a person by any means, but it is how I was raised and is thus the framework within which I have always constructed (and edited and revised) my life plans.
It is a simultaneously challenging and exciting thing then, to now have the one desire that is paramount above all others be that I spend my life together with someone else–to support one another in all facets of our life, to build a home together, and eventually to raise children together.
Because suddenly “doing what you want”, must be read in a new light. It is “doing what you want, considering that ultimately you want this relationship to flourish and through it both of you to grow, enjoy life and build a loving home.”
So suddenly the biggest choices in my life require the very serious consideration of another’s life goals, and how my choices will impact him and vice versa.
This arose powerfully at first a month or so ago when I was putting together my next trip to Ireland. I wanted to go–that was simple enough– and I had the money to do it. But I wasn’t willing to spend a 10-day holiday away from Gabe, even if it was in Ireland, and while he is indescribably excited about meeting my family and friends in Ireland the money for such a short trip (when we would be going again in the summer) didn’t seem immediately warrented.
I (for better or for worse) tend to put a great deal of stock in my gut feelings and intuitions about choices like this, to try to balance exactly how I feel with what I think. But here I found myself in the position of needing to make a choice with someone while balancing both of our intuitions with both of our thoughts on the matter. It was such a strange feeling to be stuck in this place where a choice had to be made, but I didn’t have immediate access to all the information I needed to make it–in fact by its very nature it was a choice I couldn’t make alone.
Now we find ourselves discussing the much more life-altering choices of what to do next year–my final year of my undergrad and his first year having completed his. What city will we live in? What kinds of jobs will we try to get? What will we do for the summer?
How much of what we want as individuals can be brought together in a unified plan? What sacrifices will have to be made?
Are the sacrifices warrented?
I think I am starting to understand the idea of being blinded by love. But I like it. I can feel myself growing. I would like to stay here as long as I can.
October 23rd, 2006
I went to the Audio Visual library on campus today to pick up a film I need to watch for an assignment in my Celtic Film studies course. I gave the nice man at the desk my call number, and in a freakish act of incredable memory he said, “Ah yes, December Bride,” which was actually the name of the film. “Just one second I’ll grab that for you.”
He was gone only a second, came back and placed something on the counter in front of me. In that moment it seemed unbelievably foreign to me. I froze. I thought, “what am I supposed to do with that?”
“Um, uh…” I stammered. “Do you not have it on DVD?”
“Nope,” he chirped. “Two copies, both VHS.”
I feel a little ridiculous, because I did grow up on VHS but seriously, what 20 year old owns a vcr of thier own these days?
The thing about this movie though is that nobody has ever heard of it (even a friend in Ireland where it was made), so I should probably be thankful that they have it at all.
And so my hunt for a vcr begins…
Final Score
VHS tape: 1
padg: 0
October 20th, 2006
October 19th, 2006
October 19th, 2006
A fork in the road for the makers of Wikipedia…
Could be a very exciting development!
October 17th, 2006
A thought from matthewgood.org:
It’s strange when you think about it. Christian groups canvas neighborhoods all the time and, for the most part, when people tell them they’re not interested they do so in a reasonably polite manner.
Now imagine if Muslims were to do the same. Be truthful with yourself and seriously think about the reception that Muslim canvassers would receive.
Ponder that for the rest of the day.
October 16th, 2006
That’s all really.
I can take short days if they’re white :).
October 12th, 2006
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