Garden of Daisies

Feeling blue

August 4th, 2006

I had an interesting day yesterday.

I had one of those days where the angst wins: where I question everything until I feel guilty and worthless in just about every facet of my life. One of those days where eventually your mind pushes your body so far that it’s all you can do to not to cry–and then suddenly you just have to give in anyway and the tears come hard.

I have had an incredable life-changing summer. I have just moved into a new home which I will share with wonderful new roommates and about which I am extremely excited. I signed up for and got into all but one of the courses I wanted for next year. I’m healthy, I have food on my plate and enough money in the bank to keep it that way.

But I hate how much stuff I own, and that my clothes and posessions don’t represent the person I want to be. I hate that I haven’t been going to yoga. I hate that I don’t eat purely organic food. I hate that I haven’t been spending any time nurturing my spiritual side in years.

It’s time to try to make some changes.

Entry Filed under: Spirituality/Religion, My life